Sunday, August 30, 2009

Stateless Dreams

Maybe i should rename this blog Stateless Dreams.
Again i am prompted to write, at least partially, due to some dream-scape inspiration. Instead of death from above, this time it was Ayn Rand looking for her pen. Apparently she was of the belief that one of her previous associates who happened to be my direct ancestors had illicitly come into possession of her pen and she wanted it back! I was very cordial and asked all about the pen (a white enamel fountain-tipped pen), and promised to look for it and return it to her. Before she left i even got a copy of Anthem autographed by her. In the semi-lucid period after she left i had the thought that Ayn Rand was dead and so returning her pen to her could be a problem. But not to worry i soon conjured the notion of returning the pen to her estate or to the Brandens in a Frodo like quest to return the sacred artifact to its origins and thus disperse it's powers throughout all of middle earth.

Well if i am in possession of the "Mystical Stylus of Rand" you certainly wouldn't know it from the quality of the writing here... hey maybe that would be a good blog name too, or maybe a rock band - although Rush has that niche covered.

In tribute to Ms. Rand i'll just close with one of my favorite passages from Anthem:

There is some word, one single word which is not in the language of men, but which has been. And this is the Unspeakable Word, which no men may speak nor hear. But sometimes, and it is rare, sometimes, somewhere, one among men find that word. They find it upon scraps of old manuscripts or cut into the fragments of ancient stones. But when they speak it they are put to death. There is no crime punished by death in this world, save this one crime of speaking the Unspeakable Word.
We have seen one of such men burned alive in the square of the City. And it was a sight which has stayed with us through the years, and it haunts us, and follows us, and it gives us no rest. We were a child then, ten years old. And we stood in the great square with all the children and all the men of the City, sent to behold the burning. They brought the Transgressor out into the square and they led him to the pyre. They had torn out the tongue of the Transgressor, so that they could speak no longer. The Transgressor were young and tall. They had hair of gold and eyes blue as morning. They walked to the pyre, and their step did not falter. And of all the faces on that square, of all the faces which shrieked and screamed and spat curses upon them, theirs was the calmest and happiest face.
As the chains were wound over their body at the stake, and a flame set to the pyre, the Transgressor looked upon the City. There was a thin thread of blood running from the corner of their mouth, but their lips were smiling. And a monstrous thought came to us then, which has never left us. We had heard of Saints. There are the Saints of Labor, and the Saints of the Councils, and the Saints of the Great Rebirth. But we had never seen a Saint nor what the likeness of a Saint should be. And we thought then, standing in the square, that the likeness of a Saint was the face we saw before us in the flames, the face of the Transgressor of the Unspeakable Word.
As the flames rose, a thing happened which no eyes saw but ours, else we would not be living today. Perhaps it had only seemed to us. But it seemed to us that the eyes of the Transgressor had chosen us from the crowd and were looking straight upon us. There was no pain in their eyes
and no knowledge of the agony of their body. There was only joy in them, and pride, a pride holier than it is fit for human pride to be. And it seemed as if these eyes were trying to tell us something through the flames, to send into our eyes some word without sound. And it seemed as if these eyes were begging us to gather that word and not to let it go from us and from the earth. But the flames rose and we could not guess the word . . . .
What — even if we have to burn for it like the Saint of the pyre — what is the Unspeakable Word?

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